The nauseous fire is awake. It courses down my limp limbs.
I used to speak of rattling like a pinball machine.
Now my shaking is quiet but
Like a wind irrepressible and pervasive.
“I feel perpetual. I feel perpetual.”
I told him of the comfort that I find in the feeling
Of knowing, that one day
A dog will be running over my grave.
I cannot tell you what is going on in the world. But
The smell of pines and rain.
The smell of pines and rain.
A cave of cold water and red earth.
Reaching the sun.
The shaking settles.
I fell asleep like a child,
In Grandma’s bed, some
Things do change.
And in the aqueous blackness
Of night
“I feel perpetual.”
Breathe easy.